要? 不要?

最近想剪短发的冲动特别强烈~
可能是看到很多明星都剪了短发，所以才会有那种冲动吧..
可是现在的心情有点矛盾..
该怎么形容呢??
这么说好了，毕竟头发留了要4年了
说要剪，当然非常舍不得
但是，又想要换个新形象...
平时我又很懒惰吹干头发，都是让它自然干
现在又发现很多开叉，打结
所以这又加强了我的冲动
另一方面，又怕剪出来效果不好
要等到它长应该要一段时间..
最近拍了些照片，发现头发飘的很好看，所以心里又矛盾了..
哈哈~
家人和朋友都问我会不会后悔
我说一定会的
可是没试过不知道
还是豁出去算了~

泪了..

酸涩..
今天眼睛一整天的感觉..
那是因为昨晚大哭一场所换来的代价..=.=
好久没哭了
突然觉得自己哭得好像小孩
那种夹杂着悲伤和发泄的哭法
让我觉得蛮痛快的

当然也是有原因我才会哭成这样..哈哈..
在记忆中
我和你很少吵架
在一年里，应该不超过5次吧
哭过也那么一次
所以昨天算是第二或第三次因为你而哭吧
其实对同一件事生气好像不只一两次了吧
不过还是蛮伤心的
你说会慢慢改
好吧..
可是说起来也好笑
我们是那种前一晚有点不愉快
却总能在隔一天又和对方闲话家常
所以这算是我们沟通最好的方法吧
毕竟事情总得有雨过天晴的一天..

除了为他而哭
当然还有其它方面有压力，有压抑..
所以干脆利用昨天
把一切发泄
超痛快!!
好像有一点变态..哈哈~
不过我还是比较喜欢笑
不想做爱哭鬼..=)

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY

Yesterday(Sunday) was the first anniversary of us..
Finally it reached and we both had great moment even though we could only accompany each other for half day..
but it's enough for me since it's better than can't meet at all.. ^^
we didn't celebrate in special way, just simple as usual but we knew it's meaningful than usual also.. haha
anyway, we played, watched movie, ate..
just do whatever we like to do when everytime we meet..
but only special thing he made for me was, he took 2:30pm bus went back..LOL
normally he would take 11am bus went back..=P
anyway, for me the most important was the journey we passed and how we get reach of 1 year..
I love the way we communicate..
I love the way we settle unhappy together..
I love him willing to cheer me up when I sad..
I love we still able to maintain the feeling of love struck even though we are parted in two places..















I wish it can be maintained longer, more longer, or maybe forever..
maybe I'm not the first of his..
but I willing to become his last..if can..

♥

每次总期待下一次的见面
虽然我们的距离不只一点点
你还是心甘情愿来到我身边
满足我每天不停地想念
所以我能开心的过每一天

之前我和人说话不敢眼对眼
现在我和你却敢脸贴脸
我只能说幸福还真甜
我爱你所过很多遍
但是我还听不厌
你可以再说多一点
我对你的爱永远不变

想起第一次我们把手牵
朋友们开始计算着那一天
害我们都不敢走他们前面
你不知道我每天许愿
希望那个愿望能实现
我要你是最后那个不只是初恋... ♥

upset..

YOU always upset me..
always disappointed me..
I really can't understand you..
how come you will being like that..
as one family, I thought everything will be united..
but seems we expect too much on it..
and actually you are too eccentric...
I think you will never knew it... because you are too feel good inc...

every time if the same words out from different mouths together..
you will never blame any one of your love
the partiality is really getting serious and stronger now..haiz..
what should we all being daughters do??
and in fact, the truth that we tell is to give you advice
and we really care about your image so we just tell the truth and avoid you losing face..
but when the words go into your ears and it automatically change to another meaning-- we want to cover your glorious..!!
how about your sons also advice the same thing??
why the reactions you treat us is totally opposite??
so i can get your meaning already-- you think we jealous you!!
so why you so like to ask about our opinion?? please don't always ask about our opinions again since you know we will say directly if it really bad...

you really never stand on our position and think..
this is the most disappointed!!
you are too self-centered and nothing can change your mind...
you think everyone fall short of you, but please stand on different position and think what others' feeling about the matter..
this problem was not happened in once..
it occurred since I sensible..
and you thought we show no respect for you...
in reality, we should respect each other.. not only we respect you...
no matter how we show the respect to you, and you think respecting us is not necessary..
and you never knew how it hurt when sometimes your words out!!
we want peace but every time is you create the problem at first..
you should learn how to avoid to be too particular about trifles
this will make you more unhappy
and every time we try to communicate with you, you start to blame everybody but oneself..
seems we really no manners...but we never...

anyway, i think i used to it already..
when your eldest son come back or webcam with you,
your mood will become better and soft...
even if you scold him also scold in front of us, but when you face him, the smile non-stop.. seems we are the one who did wrong!! we all really know it!!
you only can accept his advice and sometimes trust him rather than you trust dad...
you think you proud of him that's why every time like to tell in front of us about how he intelligent can go study at Australia.. keep on saying he is the first one who go oversea study among Liew's family..
and now, keep telling whose sons or daughter go Singapore working and how high their salary..
did you remember that i requested you about I wish to go Singapore working also but you rejected it?!

fortunately I have my younger sister can understand me..
in fact, we understand each other because we really used to it..
we are always be directed against...
the youngest brother and sister still young and they just know how to flatter to get dote of you even though they used to complain to me about how you care about their eldest brother..
I just telling '习惯就好'..
once you feel good and you will automatically act like nothing happened...
act like never hurt us..

forget about it,
after releasing my mood and feelings here,
feel comfortable already..
actually when I feel unhappy I like to eat nice foods..LOL
and the dinner last night I try to cook was -- Seafood Mee Hoon..!! haha
jjang jjang my result ~~

Yummy~

I like to eat, and also I love cooking =)
my breakfast for yesterday morning was sushi..
sushi as breakfast..funny right?? LOL
anyway, not always I do like that..
just suddenly the mood coming..=D






















ugly..=P

after my breakfast I became driver again to bring my mum go hair care centre and I do the same go window shopping with my youngest brother and sister..
we entered into Carrefour to find some stuffs..
same as usual I went to the area for baking again to find my target..
at last I found it..!!
it's an ingredient for baking called Gelatine..
really hard to find it and I had spent near 1 month time looking for it..
thanks God^^
Of course, I can't wait to make cheesecake with it !!
that was my first time I make cheesecake and I find it's so easy to make because from the recipe I get, the oven is not needed..=)

jjang jjang~
my result!!

OREO CHEESECAKE WITH BLUBERRY TOPPINGS~
































actually the taste not bad, and this cake fulfills my accomplishment..hehe..

星期五~

这个星期算是忙的吧..
只有星期四是空闲的
哈哈~
所以很快今天就是星期五了
周末来了哦
可是我的周末应该无聊吧..
因为除了上瑜伽，就是当司机
然后就是帮忙看店..
不过我已经开始倒数了~
到底倒数什么呢??
倒数下个周末的来临
因为我的他又要来了..!!
哈哈~
不过这次来比较特别
因为那将会是我们在一起的一周年..
很快对吧?
连我自己都吓到..XD
原来每天开开心心的相处会让时间过得很快..=)

















今天，一觉醒来觉得很愉快
因为久违了的阳光终于出现
仿佛告诉我今天将会是美好的一天^^
刚才出去吃午餐的时候就晒了一下太阳
觉得超温暖
可能办公室太冷了
哈哈~
很习惯的
每次超级空闲和无聊的星期四过后
星期五总会有工作来
有时候心里会小埋怨：为什么工作星期四不来? 偏偏在可爱的星期五来呢?? ><
不过埋怨归埋怨
还是要做啦..=D

等下就要去上瑜伽了~
上个礼拜因为身理期所以没去上...
现在兴奋的心情（能去Bali 玩）终于平复了
哈哈~
所以现在的目标就是存钱!!
















加油加 油~!! ♥