要? 不要?

最近想剪短发的冲动特别强烈~
可能是看到很多明星都剪了短发，所以才会有那种冲动吧..
可是现在的心情有点矛盾..
该怎么形容呢??
这么说好了，毕竟头发留了要4年了
说要剪，当然非常舍不得
但是，又想要换个新形象...
平时我又很懒惰吹干头发，都是让它自然干
现在又发现很多开叉，打结
所以这又加强了我的冲动
另一方面，又怕剪出来效果不好
要等到它长应该要一段时间..
最近拍了些照片，发现头发飘的很好看，所以心里又矛盾了..
哈哈~
家人和朋友都问我会不会后悔
我说一定会的
可是没试过不知道
还是豁出去算了~

泪了..

酸涩..
今天眼睛一整天的感觉..
那是因为昨晚大哭一场所换来的代价..=.=
好久没哭了
突然觉得自己哭得好像小孩
那种夹杂着悲伤和发泄的哭法
让我觉得蛮痛快的

当然也是有原因我才会哭成这样..哈哈..
在记忆中
我和你很少吵架
在一年里，应该不超过5次吧
哭过也那么一次
所以昨天算是第二或第三次因为你而哭吧
其实对同一件事生气好像不只一两次了吧
不过还是蛮伤心的
你说会慢慢改
好吧..
可是说起来也好笑
我们是那种前一晚有点不愉快
却总能在隔一天又和对方闲话家常
所以这算是我们沟通最好的方法吧
毕竟事情总得有雨过天晴的一天..

除了为他而哭
当然还有其它方面有压力，有压抑..
所以干脆利用昨天
把一切发泄
超痛快!!
好像有一点变态..哈哈~
不过我还是比较喜欢笑
不想做爱哭鬼..=)

HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY

Yesterday(Sunday) was the first anniversary of us..
Finally it reached and we both had great moment even though we could only accompany each other for half day..
but it's enough for me since it's better than can't meet at all.. ^^
we didn't celebrate in special way, just simple as usual but we knew it's meaningful than usual also.. haha
anyway, we played, watched movie, ate..
just do whatever we like to do when everytime we meet..
but only special thing he made for me was, he took 2:30pm bus went back..LOL
normally he would take 11am bus went back..=P
anyway, for me the most important was the journey we passed and how we get reach of 1 year..
I love the way we communicate..
I love the way we settle unhappy together..
I love him willing to cheer me up when I sad..
I love we still able to maintain the feeling of love struck even though we are parted in two places..















I wish it can be maintained longer, more longer, or maybe forever..
maybe I'm not the first of his..
but I willing to become his last..if can..

♥

每次总期待下一次的见面
虽然我们的距离不只一点点
你还是心甘情愿来到我身边
满足我每天不停地想念
所以我能开心的过每一天

之前我和人说话不敢眼对眼
现在我和你却敢脸贴脸
我只能说幸福还真甜
我爱你所过很多遍
但是我还听不厌
你可以再说多一点
我对你的爱永远不变

想起第一次我们把手牵
朋友们开始计算着那一天
害我们都不敢走他们前面
你不知道我每天许愿
希望那个愿望能实现
我要你是最后那个不只是初恋... ♥

upset..

YOU always upset me..
always disappointed me..
I really can't understand you..
how come you will being like that..
as one family, I thought everything will be united..
but seems we expect too much on it..
and actually you are too eccentric...
I think you will never knew it... because you are too feel good inc...

every time if the same words out from different mouths together..
you will never blame any one of your love
the partiality is really getting serious and stronger now..haiz..
what should we all being daughters do??
and in fact, the truth that we tell is to give you advice
and we really care about your image so we just tell the truth and avoid you losing face..
but when the words go into your ears and it automatically change to another meaning-- we want to cover your glorious..!!
how about your sons also advice the same thing??
why the reactions you treat us is totally opposite??
so i can get your meaning already-- you think we jealous you!!
so why you so like to ask about our opinion?? please don't always ask about our opinions again since you know we will say directly if it really bad...

you really never stand on our position and think..
this is the most disappointed!!
you are too self-centered and nothing can change your mind...
you think everyone fall short of you, but please stand on different position and think what others' feeling about the matter..
this problem was not happened in once..
it occurred since I sensible..
and you thought we show no respect for you...
in reality, we should respect each other.. not only we respect you...
no matter how we show the respect to you, and you think respecting us is not necessary..
and you never knew how it hurt when sometimes your words out!!
we want peace but every time is you create the problem at first..
you should learn how to avoid to be too particular about trifles
this will make you more unhappy
and every time we try to communicate with you, you start to blame everybody but oneself..
seems we really no manners...but we never...

anyway, i think i used to it already..
when your eldest son come back or webcam with you,
your mood will become better and soft...
even if you scold him also scold in front of us, but when you face him, the smile non-stop.. seems we are the one who did wrong!! we all really know it!!
you only can accept his advice and sometimes trust him rather than you trust dad...
you think you proud of him that's why every time like to tell in front of us about how he intelligent can go study at Australia.. keep on saying he is the first one who go oversea study among Liew's family..
and now, keep telling whose sons or daughter go Singapore working and how high their salary..
did you remember that i requested you about I wish to go Singapore working also but you rejected it?!

fortunately I have my younger sister can understand me..
in fact, we understand each other because we really used to it..
we are always be directed against...
the youngest brother and sister still young and they just know how to flatter to get dote of you even though they used to complain to me about how you care about their eldest brother..
I just telling '习惯就好'..
once you feel good and you will automatically act like nothing happened...
act like never hurt us..

forget about it,
after releasing my mood and feelings here,
feel comfortable already..
actually when I feel unhappy I like to eat nice foods..LOL
and the dinner last night I try to cook was -- Seafood Mee Hoon..!! haha
jjang jjang my result ~~

Yummy~

I like to eat, and also I love cooking =)
my breakfast for yesterday morning was sushi..
sushi as breakfast..funny right?? LOL
anyway, not always I do like that..
just suddenly the mood coming..=D






















ugly..=P

after my breakfast I became driver again to bring my mum go hair care centre and I do the same go window shopping with my youngest brother and sister..
we entered into Carrefour to find some stuffs..
same as usual I went to the area for baking again to find my target..
at last I found it..!!
it's an ingredient for baking called Gelatine..
really hard to find it and I had spent near 1 month time looking for it..
thanks God^^
Of course, I can't wait to make cheesecake with it !!
that was my first time I make cheesecake and I find it's so easy to make because from the recipe I get, the oven is not needed..=)

jjang jjang~
my result!!

OREO CHEESECAKE WITH BLUBERRY TOPPINGS~
































actually the taste not bad, and this cake fulfills my accomplishment..hehe..

星期五~

这个星期算是忙的吧..
只有星期四是空闲的
哈哈~
所以很快今天就是星期五了
周末来了哦
可是我的周末应该无聊吧..
因为除了上瑜伽，就是当司机
然后就是帮忙看店..
不过我已经开始倒数了~
到底倒数什么呢??
倒数下个周末的来临
因为我的他又要来了..!!
哈哈~
不过这次来比较特别
因为那将会是我们在一起的一周年..
很快对吧?
连我自己都吓到..XD
原来每天开开心心的相处会让时间过得很快..=)

















今天，一觉醒来觉得很愉快
因为久违了的阳光终于出现
仿佛告诉我今天将会是美好的一天^^
刚才出去吃午餐的时候就晒了一下太阳
觉得超温暖
可能办公室太冷了
哈哈~
很习惯的
每次超级空闲和无聊的星期四过后
星期五总会有工作来
有时候心里会小埋怨：为什么工作星期四不来? 偏偏在可爱的星期五来呢?? ><
不过埋怨归埋怨
还是要做啦..=D

等下就要去上瑜伽了~
上个礼拜因为身理期所以没去上...
现在兴奋的心情（能去Bali 玩）终于平复了
哈哈~
所以现在的目标就是存钱!!
















加油加 油~!! ♥

下雨天..

这几天都是下雨天..
我喜欢这样的天气
细细的雨
凉凉的天气
没有雷声
很舒服
在夜晚更容易入睡..
哈哈~ 爱死这种天气了~

只是雨天总是容易让人忧郁啊...
很多回忆往事总会不停浮现脑海
有伤心的, 有开心的..
只是好希望你们都在身边..
是不是容易在雨天感到寂寞呢??
感觉不到朋友的热情
每天上班，下班，晚餐， 上网然后睡觉
每天重复着一样的作息
好乏味无趣..
我的忧愁病又来了..
哈哈~

好了，emo 完了就来分享我的喜悦吧~
昨天我和小诗超够力!!
因为我们想去Bali 很久了
刚好AirAsia 有 promotion
才想要问他要不要去
他就先问我了
当然二话不说答应了
哈哈~
明明是明年十月尾的行程给我们搞到很像下个月十月要去酱..LOL
可能我们真的真得很想去
终于能去了
所以很紧张
超好笑!!
现在确定能去的只有我，小诗和我 babe..
接下来的都是小诗的同事的朋友..
管它的了
不管跟谁
我就是一定要去到!! XD

















明年我们还要抓紧AirAsia 的 promotion 去韩国~
那是我的另一个梦想国啊!!
哈哈~
Aza Aza Hwaiting ~!!

Moviee

On the last weekend, I had watched 2 movies with my babe and family on different day.
On last Saturday me n my babe enjoyed the movie that directed by Namee Wong, 'Nasi Lemak 2.0'.





















For us, we enjoyed the movie because the way he presenting the story is funny.
Although there are some rude words are used in the movie, for me it is just present the reality and our culture here..and I know there are extreme comments on this movie, some good some bad.
For those who gave bad comments on the movie is just not dare to face the reality happened in Malaysia..
anyway, I treated it as a relaxing movie for me to laugh when watching =)


Besides this movie, 'Johny English Reborn' is another movie that I watched with my lovely family.





















Sorry for me never watched the previous Johny English movie, and I think in this movie it has explained enough about previous part since the story got some linkage with it, so I can understand ^^
Same in this movie, I had laughed no image in cinema and I think you will do the same if you watch it LOL

Recently I have the habit of eating pop corn while watching movie in cinema.
And I think it's absolutely influenced by my babe since everytime he will definitely buy pop corn to enjoy in cinema..haha (p.s. I seldom eat pop corn in cinema before i knew him..)
anyway, maybe it's a nice habit for me because it makes the movie more 'tasty'.. =D

♥ THANKS ALL MY LOVELY BABES ♥

My lovely babes and Monster Family had their first visit Johor Bahru on last saturday..
they successfully made my weekend awesome and wonderful since we all enjoy the gathering after the graduation ceremony in July..
it has been near 2 months we never met..
appreciate the time hanging out with them and it refreshed our memories again =)

I was celebrated my belated birthday with my lovely friends at Danga Bay on last Saturday night..
at first I knew nothing about that because that was my babe's plan..
he used the excuse to accompany a friend go take the tripod and then meet up with us by hiding behind a post..
it really surprised me since that was the very first time a boy that I love holding a cake..
and it touched me..
all my friends sang birthday song for me and it wet my eyes again..(I think no one knew my eyes were wet LOL)
after that I got my birthday present from him while we all strolling and enjoying the view..
it surprised me again since he gave me a watch that I aimed from last few months..
it was a Casio Baby-G watch..=)






















besides the gift, a card specially made by him was given to me..
the card is awesome not only because of he did it, but the design made me feel that he is a girl..LOL
for me, it's impossible for a boy to do it because it seems need a lot of time to design and meticulous!!
I love the card so so much again since it's made by my favorite color, red and black~
thx babe ♥





















after strolling and enjoy the view, we departed to next destination--sing k!!
it has been a long time for us never sing k together~
and we had crazily sung until 2:30am..
it was my first time sing k until so late in JB..haha~
anyway nice try for all of us again =)

on sunday, it was the day they all going back..
times passes really fast
and before they all going back
we went to Fufu's house..
sorry for keep silent when I was at her house..
actually I feel sad because had to separate with them again..
I hate the feeling..><
and when they going to depart
suddenly szeping said she had made a card for me
it was a nice and beautiful card just like herself..LOL
of course inside contains the words she wanted to tell and wish me..
it made me touching since some words she never told me before..
thanks alot xiao shi~ ♥
















in short, having you all is the best thing for me in my life
I couldn't imagine how if I lost you all or never met you all in my life
it would be a boring life for me..
I appreciate every single moment with you all
you all must remember that, I really love you all so so much~
we must be good sisters, brothers, friends forever~♥

My Love~

这真的是一张听了会上瘾的专辑
虽然里面的歌大多是非主流
但是田馥甄的歌声很巧妙的诠释这些歌曲
让我觉得应该没有人可以唱出这种feel 吧..
这次还是主打爱的主题
同名歌曲 ‘My Love’ 的歌词很赞
仿佛说完在爱情里受伤过的人的心声..
我最喜欢的 ‘还是要幸福’ 属于疗伤系
一听就爱上
每天一定要听一次
会上瘾
哈哈~
至于其它歌都也有可听性
除了歌名特别
曲风也很特别~
总结，这是一张值得收藏的专辑 =)
掌声鼓励鼓励~

期待总带来失望..

还想起去年的今天
有人给了我惊喜
同样的一天来临了
但是却让我失望
不要求什么礼物
我要的
你也做不到
只是试探的问
结果你还是真的去了..
是我不会要求
还是什么..
唉..

SICK...

Today I feel so sick..T.T
i get flu and it makes me had a big headache!!
my eyes keep closing while I was working just now..
damn suffering~ >.<
anyway, at least it's better now..
just hope it will recover tomorrow..
God Bless Me Please~

♥ 11 ♥

昨天是我和他的第11个月
很快对不对？
连我自己也不敢相信
从陌生到熟悉
从不习惯到不能没有彼此
从不自然到超自然
哈哈~
就这样
我们懵懵懂懂地过了11个月...
其实真的很庆幸当时我愿意尝试
一开始他其实不是我会注意的类型
但是交往越久
才发现能够给你真正的爱的人
才是最重要的
因为我的接受
我现在才能每天过得幸福
虽然有时候会有小不愉快
但是那也算在爱情必上的一课吧
真的觉得每天关心和担心彼此
那是种幸福
也觉得每天都是美好的...=)

初恋这件小事..

今天看了这部电影
非常感动
有欢笑有泪水
而且也打开了回忆的锁
真的很赞的一部电影~
青涩的爱情非常单纯
友情的重要
简单的故事线巧妙地把它们连在一起
这种纯朴的爱最难忘怀
有多久没有真正看过一部真正的好电影了
不用华丽的阵容
不用什么特效
没有冷场
对我而言，这部戏做到了..

看到女主角小时候
就想到以前的我也是黑黑的..
哈哈~
只是我没有她开朗
敢主动
哈哈~
当然曾经也喜欢过学校的风云人物
所以这部戏非常成功把每个人有过的经历有这种故事呈现
最单纯，最直接的表达才是正中要害..

暗恋每个人必定有过的经历
又有几个人能够得到暗恋的人呢？
那种看着喜欢的他对别的女生亲近
真的很不好受
又一次被电影的表达带领我重回旧时光
没错，我也经历过...

友情的可贵
一起做功课
一起打闹
一起帮忙提出办法只为让男主角对女主角青睐
真正的友谊是彼此帮忙
然而却因为女主角为了爱情忽略了友情，产生了友谊之间的变化
好在又一次感动的破镜重圆
真是可喜..

男主角的不敢表达让女主角伤了多年的心
单纯的为了令男主角注意的女主角在三年内努力改变自己
却被男主角毕业时拒绝
这也是这部戏的高潮之一

经过多年
大家事业有成
兜兜转转
当初不敢表达的男主角终于表白了自己的心
虽然这是预料之中的结局
但是在听到男主角说出的答案
眼泪还是忍不住掉下来
那是幸福的眼泪
就像是这部戏帮我们圆了当年我们无法完成的梦..

初恋可以是小事
但是仔细回味才发现里头包含了不同滋味..
因为我以前太过自卑
所以完全没初恋这回事
哈哈~
倒是暗恋过蛮多人..
我相信感觉差不多吧

总而言之
自己观赏才会体会里头的故事
我表达的只是我的观后感..
这部戏的英文名是 “Crazy little thing called love”

初恋这件小事--赞!!

加油...

我知道那种感觉不好受
因为我也曾经经历过
所以我懂..
也许都是同样星座
所以大概明白彼此的性格
你我曾经都拒绝过别人
只因为处女座爱挑剔的性格
尤其对情人
所以感觉很重要
有时候要的不来，来的我们不要
就算要的他来了，到最后却不属于我们..
每个人背后总会有一段故事
尤其是对那些平时开朗的人而言
他们背后的故事恐怕更为辛酸
处女座的个性
隐藏不住心情
虽然偶尔会尽量在外在不表现出来
但是还是会找一个管道发泄
部落格一直是我宣泄的方法
你也是..
就当你爱上的是一个心里容得下两个女生的男生
身为姐妹的我们
当然会反对这个男人
我相信你也一样
为他伤透了心
就在你认为一切会开花结果的时候
这朵花在还没盛开时就先枯萎了
问题是明明施了肥，浇了水..
却还是如此
或许只有命中注定能解释吧
又或许你不是它真正的主人吧..
谁不为爱伤心过？
伤心过后还是要坚强
在一切平静自然度过一段时光
说不定对的人就在不远处
=)
加油哦， 洪小馥~!! ♥

突然很想你 =)

最近我好想念你们
真的
我相信你们也一样
因为那晚我们的疯言疯语透露着彼此的心声
好想面对面聊天
好想拥抱大家
非常容易感到寂寞
尤其是在晚上
是什么让我们同时变成这样？
是压力？
还是太想念？
哈哈~
还是单纯的怀念那段时光？
今天下午和MIKO姐姐聊天时
我坦白对她说
我最开心和最喜欢的人生阶段就是在大学
那是我最珍惜也最无法忘怀的美丽回忆
小学和中学的我太过自卑
只因为自己的肤色
所以都不敢主动认识朋友
真正的好朋友也都是三四个
虽然有时候会有班聚
但是我的朋友都在国外
所以就算我去
可能也不知道要和他们说什么吧
这也是离开中学将近4年却没有参加过任何班聚...
真正改变我的人生是在大学
我开始变得开朗
有一点自信
之所以改变我的人是你们
真的觉得很幸运
如果没有你们
我相信现在的我还是一样
过着普普通通的日子吧
感谢你们..
给你们亲一个~~
XD
















当然我也很想念另外一个人 ♥
如果你问我
有距离的恋爱好不好？
我会说有好有坏
坏的当然是你不能相见他就见他
还有过马路少了一个人牵你
心情不好没人能咬
伤心时少了他的拥抱

但是
距离对我来说
偶尔能保持新鲜感
甚至保持着热恋的感觉
因为少见的缘故
所以一见面
有时还是会羞涩
哈哈~
也因为距离
会珍惜每个相聚的日子
虽然有时也会因为一些小事不开心
但是我们都尽量避免争执...
这是我觉得难能可贵的地方吧
之所以如此
我们愿意敞开心扉
当下解决我们不爽的事情
所以以后尽量避免重犯...

想说
珍惜当下拥有的
两个人相爱并不容易
不要因为不必要的纷争而成了遗憾... =)

new experience

today i bring my mum go to 101 hair care center
due to the hair drop problem that faced by my mum
my mum had decided to hv a treatment since she was suffered enough by the problem
and of coz the package is not cheap especially the hair prob faced by her is quite serious
so it will be a 24 times treatments and make them into every saturday..
hair products such as the shampoo, conditioner, tonic and other products are recommended to buy also..
but fortunately i get a free sample of shampoo, conditioner and tonic
and my mum get another 3 free treatments (so total will be 27 treatments in the package)
i can feel tat the products are quite natural and fresh after used it
and i hope my mum can get what her want after 7 months..
=)

发泄

刚刚听到了一句话
觉得有点伤心...
看来有时候戏比我重要
因为你说sms 给你比较好
我问为什么
你说因为你想看戏relax..
难道跟你说声晚安会浪费很多时间吗
原来我的声音不能让你relax..
有够伤心..
算了吧
就当我久久发泄一下..
至少我很少闹脾气..

yeah~

i find that i really like yoga very much now!!
there is less chance to get sweated when u're an office lady
so yoga class is really a nice chance for me to sweat alot
n the feeling is so nice!!
although sometimes it might be exhausted since straightly go to the classes after working
but it does make me can have a nice sleep at night =)
it does help me alot because recently i'm having insomnia..
in short, i enjoy every yoga classes i have attended
n i hope it can brighten my life in future and i know it will be..^^

tonight my babe will come n find me
quite worry coz he will reach here very late!!
pray for him =)
cant wait for the outings with him tmr~

thinking..

my phone seems become more worst after repairing..
haiz...
so i'm thinking to change a new phone..
according to my babe,
he said i'm having an ipod now
no need iphone since their function quite same..
there is a phone i'm paying attention now,that is HTC Sensation..



















juz now i went to HTC stall to take a look on the phone
it's quite big and looked ok...
but i'm wondering is it there are some other nice phones can be recommended..

GOOD MOOD!!

today i spent my 2 hours on yoga also =)
it's quite hard for me since my bone so hard and sometimes really difficult to done some action..
LOL
anyway,it's a nice try for me since i can feel many parts of my body did used during the yoga class..^^

my phone is finally alive!!
haha~
and it helps me decline the problem of buying a new phone since i plan to buy a new one at the end of the year..haha

Monday will be holiday for me and it means also i can rest one more day =)
hehe..

my babe said maybe he will come n find me on the coming fri..
hope it can be realized..LOL

today..

today is my first day enter into the yoga class..
the classes i attended were yoga slimming and yoga meridian..
of course, yoga slimming is more powerful since it helps to slimmer our body..
yoga meridian is quite peace and it helps to strengthen body as well as calm our mind..
anyway,quite enjoy the classes and the time passes quite fast also..=)
tomorrow will be another 2 yoga classes
they are yoga hatha and yoga restorative flow..
i will share again my feeling after the classes at here..
and i wish yoga can really make my body healthier and slimmer..
haha~

on the other hand,
my phone was dead with unexpectedly..
so bad!!
it's a wrong timing for me since i'm still not yet get ready to buy a new phone..
haiz..
it spoiled my mood today!!

FINALLY!!

our graduation was finally held on last sat =)
i was so happy to meet all my frens again after 2 months no meet up
the feeling was hard to describe at last actually..
coz happy time passes very fast everytime..
3 days 2 nights to play wid them juz feel like not enuf..
but it's ok since we are planning for next trip =)
n i also introduce all my frens to my mum by showing the photos to her
hope she can let me go back meet wid them after she knows them..XD

and especially i quite surprise when seeing xiao roy sent us the flowers..
really very touching n wish to hug him!!
LOL
tis ceremony makes me understand wat real friendship is...
i can feel our friendship love was in the air while we all playing around thr =)
i'm always waiting for the chance to meet wid them again...

juz wan to say
proud to be one of the Monster Family and Beast!!
i love u all ♥


i love tis funny photo oso~
although it looked weird but it made my day!! XD
sorry pang jia kee.. XD

别再搞砸了..

有些事情原本不会变样
是人把它变样的..
人心真的是可怕..
尤其是只顾着自己的感受而忽略了它带来的可怕结果
我想我遇到了
我就是眼睁睁看着它因为我的过错而变质
可以弥补吗？
来得及吗？
原来我是凶手
是我亲手扼杀了它..

学会放下..

最近
我开始领悟
人，不要太爱妒忌
我承认我非常爱妒忌
所以这是我最大的缺点
开始觉得
人生短暂
如果总是把时间浪费在无谓的小事上
失去的比得到的更多
这也就是我所领悟到的道理
珍惜所拥有的
放下成见
我正在学习...
我之所以打算学瑜伽
也正是因为经过我所研究的发现
它对心灵的建设有帮助..
我想向之前我对你们发过脾气的人说声对不起..
我一定会改的=)

Waiting~

Finally today i done my decision on the new target of my life
i will start to attend Yoga class on next next week..
actually it's not only Yoga class, but also Fitness class..
the package i'm taking includes both classes and it satisfies my target of slimming..XD
really can't wait to join the classes since i'm really serious and interested with these classes..
sometimes i really wish to do something other than working..
it's boring life for me if there is only working
it makes me feel like wasting of my life..
that's why i start to find something great for life..=)
i will update more experiences and feeling about the classes soon..
wait ya~ haha!!

寂寞寂寞就好

突然觉得这首歌很适合现在的我
“这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱..”
有些东西其实根本无法埋怨
事实就是事实
只怪自己看不开
是我不够成熟
情绪管理等级超低
有时候真的很想去不看，不听，不问甚至不知道...

ps: 别问我什么事或是安慰之类的..
就让我寂寞寂寞就好..
很快就会好的 ^^

2nd meeting ♥

it will be the 2nd meeting between me and him on the coming friday ♥
and of course i can't wait to see him as soon as possible..lol
but the meeting with all of my friends in INTI on the convo of 23/7 makes me excited as well~
really hard to meet with them after leave INTI..
the distance is the main problem...
so i really hope there will be a trip for all of us in year end..haha~
actually the main reason for me wishing to have a trip is the busy working life
it makes me wanna have a rest and relax...

exhausted..!!

today is the 1st day i learn to do report..
actually it's not so difficult but nid time to edit it..
there are 4 companies' files are still on my table..
really busy..
but i quite like the feeling of busy since it makes the time passes faster..!!
lol
so fast tmr is friday again...
on the same day of last week i was very excited to wait my babe visit JB..
haha~
my bro n sis had a great time wid him
they miss him sometimes oso..XD
guess we will meet again on 23/7
n meet my lovely frens on the same day..
really miss them alot
my great memories of inti still here and it does always remind how i enjoy the fun we had..
=)
gud luck everyone ♥

开始想念...

我的周末好久没有那么精彩了
那是因为我的他来找我
陪我过了开心的周末
真的很感动
当我在车站看到他的那一刻
虽然才三个星期不见
对我来说好像好几个月没见了
昨天和他去看了' X-Men'
好久没和他看戏了
感觉很好
^^
还有我们去吃了我最爱的 ‘Seoul Garden’
超满足的 =)
但是欢乐的时光过得总是特别快
今天他回去了
许久未见的失落感再次找上我
好想一直陪在他身边...真的...
这个周末虽然没有什么休息到
因为驾车载着他到处走走逛逛吃吃
但是我不觉得累
反而很想一直这样陪他走下去..
看来下次的再见应该是七月的毕业典礼吧
希望时间过得快一些...
开始想念...他...
我想他..

I HATE PIMPLES!!!

my pimples popping out actively recently
i tink is becoz i start working
stress and busy bring trouble to my skin
so bad!!

my first time..

this is the very first time i get my salary in my life..
haha
the mood is so so good~
although it is the salary for 6 working days in this month only
but the feeling is so nice..=)
maybe is becos this is the first time i get money with putting effort on it..^^
and i trust that it will be my motivation on my job...LOL

can't wait..

finally he plans to find me on this coming friday night...
but hope he can get the bus ticket to come here since saturday will be the public holiday
this plan makes me feel excited all the time and always in good mood..LOL
my dad stays the cool mode while my mum is showing a very welcome mood to him
this makes me feel funny because first time see my mum doing like this
she still helps me tell my dad and ask me don't bother my dad...XD
but at last my dad got tell me which hotel of my place nice to stay and allow me go out wid him on whole saturday..
this makes me feel happy and decrease my worry..haha~
anyway,can't wait to reach friday and wish there is ticket to let him come over here..LOL

finally..

finally the company i handle for 3 days end soon..
and i really thanks to the girl who guide me to do the account
but another sad thing to me is she will leave the company soon..
really wish me can handle everything once she leave
god bless me..

i forced to on-leave on monday since i not yet register my EPF..
and it means i will lost one day salary because i'm still in trial of employee
haiz..
i found that i really become sensitive to the money now..
before i would never think about the price of the foods i ate
and now i start to select the foods that cost cheaper..=.=''
really different from before..lol
tmr is friday~
saturday faster come!!
why only worked for 4 days made me feel like worked for many weeks already..?? ><
is it learn too many things and absorb too many new knowledge..??
really wish my brain can back to 13 or 14 yrs old..lol
anyway,hwaiting to me ♥

BUSY LIFE

to me now,everyday is busy
since i wake up early and sleep early everyday
the time i spending on working is more than i staying at home..
and i'm now waiting for weekend everyday..XD
juz wish can rest since busy everyday..lol

TODAY

today is my 2nd day of working..
it was better than yesterday since everything move smoothly
but there is another challenge waiting for me since my senior gave me a project that she did it before and asked me try to do it..
hope i can handle it tomorrow
hwaiting =)

dun know why
maybe is because of new environment
i start to become the person who same with secondary school
not dare to talk and keep silent always...
the only way i can release myself is in front of Monster Family..

finally i reach home at 6:40pm just now..
it means i better leave office at 5:40pm...
lol
i must learn to smile everyday
and i hope it can bring me luck everyday..^^
♥

hate+stress...!!!

today is my first day of working...
have many feelings here...
i hate traffic jam for the journey going to work and going back from work...
a 20 minutes journey become 1 hours...
really pek cek!!
it is all because of the road reconstructions!!
hate it alot!!
it makes me have to reach home near 8pm.. T.T

besides,my stress comes and finds me on the very first day..
it is because the company i'm working now is singapore tax service and audit company,
but i'm work as an account executive so i have to collect the information from clients and prepare the financial statements and journals via singapore accounting software..
it confuses me alot..!!
there are many singapore companies' financial information need to be handled and the understanding on the information provided is very important
besides, the companies who are under GST policy have different treatment..
this makes me feel very very stress since it really totally different from the knowledge gained from university..
the real life experience is really 'amazing' so i have to 'deserve' it... T.T
actually dun know whether my choice is correct or not
start to work in a challenging company
but fortunately my colleagues are quite nice and kind
hope they won't feel troublesome when i asking for their help..><

i just want to say,
GOD BLESS ME PLEASE
wish i can work smoothly and alright always..

nervous..

i start to feel nervous because of tomorrow
it will be my first day of working
i think i will take bus to the working place since i dun know the parking fee for whole working hours is how much..
i really hope that i can find friends on the first day
it will be another stage of my life..
there are different kinds of people and different levels of age
so it also means different personality i will meet in working place
wish i can work with happy and enjoy it
hwaiting to myself =)

HAPPY~♥

today is another turning point of my mood
i become happier because i just change back my hairstyle to straight hair
my lovely straight hair is finally back~~!!!
damn happy while i saw the result come out from the hairstylist
it was only 4 months for me that i had a curly hair but i had been facing lots of problem from taking care of it...><
for me 4 months is quite suffer since i really beh tahan on it..!! LOL
curly hair is really hard to care since it became very dry and very 'loose' (松散)
besides, my hair easy to get knot..
and it made my hair easy to drop compare with straight hair!!
the main reason i feel very happy is because my straight hair makes me looked younger...!! XD
finally i can comb my hair since it has a rule that avoid to comb the hair while it was curl...=.=''
'change hairstyle can also change mood' has made sense since i'm the example...!!
i have a very good mood now with this straight hair and i love it so so much~~
muacksss~~!!

it's friday...

it's friday again
but this friday makes me remember about last friday..
i spent my last friday at genting highland with all my lovely friends and sisters as well as my babe ♥
this friday reminds me also i had passed last few days with sad mood
i admit that i had cried for four days and yesterday was the first day i never cried...
i really shouldn't become so sad
as my babe said,'we all still in one planet'
lol
actually this is a funny sentence when come out from his mouth
but it really makes sense
ya,we not only in one planet
we still in one land,Malaysia
so i should feel happy =)
and i promise him i won't cry again...
but i have an only hope is, he can find a job here and i pray for him everyday also..
all the best babe ♥
i wish u luck and for those my friends who from indonesia (winni and andrie) can find job in Malaysia successfully...
hwaiting ~~

平淡 & 无趣

这个星期的生活太平淡了
平淡到我都不知道过了几天
整天重复一样的事情
我应该这个星期就开始工作的
这样我就不会想太多
也不会太悲伤
难怪有些歌曲会唱到用忙碌来忘记悲伤
看来我将会理解那样的心情
其实我真的很希望他能在这里找到工作
我不想因为国籍问题变成我们的问题
虽然我知道又是我想太多

最近每个下午都下雨
都让我想起以前我很喜欢的一首歌
听了又很悲的歌
我家人说我话变少了
笑容少了
可是我就是不想讲，不想笑
我也拿自己没办法
只有在听到他的声音我才有办法释放最真的自己
我感觉到我变了
不像以前的我
是不习惯少了他的陪伴
还是我不敢面对现实
我承认我太懦弱了
禁不起考验
我到底会行尸走肉到几时呢?
唉..
加油吧..
我对自己说...

Never know...

I never know that I could love you that much..
when you were beside me and the time we always stick together
I couldn't know I will sad like this...
I thought I prefer friends than you when i was at campus
but after I come back here
I think you are important to me the most since the main thing that can make my tears everyday is you...
distance makes me cannot hug and touch you..
and it suffers me alot...
everynight I miss your hug and everytime when I hear your voice thru the phone...
it warms me and comfort me alot..
but it makes me cry also
because I cannot see your face and feel you...
you're really important to me you know?
everything becomes mess without you...
I can laugh loudly because of some funny things but then suddenly turn to cry...
I become silent at home and moody always...
I keep on planning when I can go and find you or you come and find me...
I enjoy the shower time because it is the only time belong to me and my family wouldn't find me cry inside...
really hard to do everything without you...
every day and night I keep thinking of you...
thinking of what you doing there...
but very happy that we had our first webcam since I come back here...
finally I can see your smile and see your expression...
but I still cannot touch you...><
anyway,it does make my great night...^^
I know you are facing problem in finding job...
but I will always pray for you =)
hwaiting babe ♥
let's hwaiting for our future..
don't let distance become our problem and i trust you always...
the only thing that I can't control myself is missing you...
I just wanna say
'babe,I love you...♥'

失望...

今天早上本来打算明天回一趟nilai
所以我就问了我妈妈
她说可以
但是爸爸不让我去..
真的很伤心..!!
我马上跑到厕所哭..
唉...
我知道才回到这里还没几天
我就已经顶不住了..
我是不是很没用...??

今天..

今天我终于找到工作了
可是我完全没有准备
只有因为我没那种心情
还正在处于那种伤心的状态
所以当我得到工作时
也没有任何心情起伏

我很想他...
我很想你们...
我现在真的很想大喊
我怕会闷出病来
刚刚听到电台播的歌曲
首首充满回忆
当我听到王菲的‘我愿意’和陶喆的‘爱很简单’时，
眼泪马上掉下
真的很想他...
好像抱他...
真的...
思念是一种很玄的东西

每次听到他从电话传出来的声音
让我很激动
又必须掩饰我的情绪
眼睛充满泪水跟他通话
只怕让他听到我哭...
好难受...
这种相见却不能见的感觉真的最痛..!!

Babe,我真的很想你..
我会尽量过得开心一点...
只要有机会
我会马上去找你..
你也要加油哦..
♥

脆弱..

今天我真正离开学校
也暂时和他展开远距离恋情
这种同时和朋友，爱人一起分开的感觉很难承受
我的心痛了一整天
空荡荡了一整天
我从来没有过这种感觉
很无助
看回我们的照片
百感交集的泪水不断滑落
在家人面前
我不敢哭
我想，就算我哭了
他们也应该不明白我的感受吧
所以只能在夜晚和洗澡的时候哭

在刚才和他道别时
心里还没那么难受
但是真正到家
发现3个小时车程的距离还是让我禁不住泪水
我可能有一段时间不能得到他的拥抱
有一段时间我看不到他的笑容
有一段时间我摸不到他的温度...
真的很没有安全感
我不知道我能不能度过这段艰难的时期...

一到家
我才发现我第一次不愿意回家
一边整理我的东西
一边强忍泪水
真的很痛苦
我怀念大家一起欢乐的日子
我怀念我和他一起的日子
我怀念他喜欢硬抱着我不放的感觉
我怀念他的冷笑话
我怀念很多很多...
但现在我不能真正拥有...
很空虚...

14 ♥ 5 ♥ 2011

今天对我来说是百感交集的一天
很多很多回忆不断涌现
让我不知所措
不舍得就这么结束
不甘愿时间过得如此快
让我觉得我在这里的日子就像一场美梦
有喜怒哀乐
这不就是人生吗??

在这里遇到的人事物
拥有不同的回忆
虽然我们有过矛盾，误会和不理解
但是想了想
与其花时间在无谓的事情上
不如珍惜每一天
就像我开始后悔不久前自己闹得别扭
现在觉得自己太傻了

今天我们从云顶回来
大多数朋友已经回家
下午和朋友们一一道别
在巴士上
根本没心情睡
只是不断怀疑时间为什么过得那么快
转眼三天就像一天那样迅速消失

刚才洗完澡后
看到小诗已经收拾完毕即将离开
我只是匆匆忙忙的对她挥了挥手
然后迅速把门关上
我就知道我的眼泪会不受控制
仿佛准确的倒数
在门关上的刹那
眼泪直接流下

我最讨厌离别
讨厌在快乐过后的失落感
那种感觉像是慢性折磨
突然的空虚感让人承受不了
好像梦醒过后才发现刚刚发生的只是美梦一场
曾经一起吃午晚餐
曾经一边洗澡，一边聊天
曾经一起疯狂吃
好多好多的曾经
都只是曾经了
我相信未来很少机率能像曾经那样玩了...

感谢我的大学生涯有你们
不然我将不会知道真正的疯狂叫什么
朋友，姐妹们
加油了
等着你们在事业上的成就
两个月后我们就能在毕业典礼上再次见面了
那将会是我的动力 =)

RELAX

今天我终于完成了最后一张试卷
现在的我突然觉得很空虚
因为好像即将离开学校
离开好朋友们
唉．．．

过两天就要和朋友毕业旅行了
希望我的emo feel 不要再来找我了
在那几天
我要体验的是友谊
我不喜欢因为拍拖
然后就把我们憋在一旁
我也想像之前那样玩
希望你们可以体谅我

这几天真的是够了
哭也哭够了
每天哭
真的怕眼睛会掉下来
希望今晚开始
我的生命再次充满笑容和热情
既然讲开了
我希望迎来的是更坚固更美满的友情
你们要知道
我在乎友情胜于爱情．．．

♥

我太笨..

这是第几次我又为了同一件事哭呢...
一次又一次
我还以为我应付得来
可以麻痹了
可是我还是太脆弱了
我之所以伤心是因为在乎
可是不说你却不懂
说了怕你内疚
可是最后我还是说了
为什么我有那种要你可怜我的感觉呢
是我的妒忌心太强吗
我也不知道
还是这是三人行必经的过程
总有两个是比较好的
另一个就自求多福
我也受够了那么没用的自己
我，就是脆弱
我，就是爱哭
我，就是在乎..

想太多

有时候真的很讨厌自己
不会管理自己的情绪
而且每次乱乱想
妒忌真的会让人冲昏头脑
我明白一切都是无谓的胡思乱想...
真的好抱歉...
我的心胸太狭窄
只是偶尔觉得融入不进...

复杂

最近的心情只有这两个字可以形容
有开心，有伤心，有压力，有疲惫...
第一次感受到找工作的困难
也明白石沉大海的道理
当然有时候心里很不是滋味
但是也没有办法
因为本身条件也不是很好
所以还是只有靠运气了
有时候真的觉得付出从来不等于收回...

再加上
有一个我现在想也不敢想的东西
一切真的希望它顺其自然...
我真的很珍惜这段..

당신을 사랑합니다 ♥

FINALLY

finally i got my 1st Apple product in my life yesterday
i bought a iPod Touch 4th generation at midvalley
i had targeted on it since last year...
but no money n no excuse to let me buy it
on Wed,i lost my MP3 unfortunately..
tat's why i plan to buy an iPod
it was so surprise and happy when my dad allow me to buy while i was asking him thru the phone..
and with the accompany of szeping n winni
we had a movie n i bought the iPod Touch =)
it is a really good entertainment product for me now


I LOVE IT SO MUCH ♥

^^

juz now my family had a nice webcam wid my bro who studying at AUS now...
it has been 2 months we never seen him and my mum said he thin ady although i cant find whr he thin...XD
but if i were him,i think i will sure cry because whole family were talking wid him and care about him...^^
maybe he is boy,so will cry after webcam ba..LOL

n i miss Monster's family webcam last night..T.T
so sad without me...
anyway,i believe that we can meet soon...
hope both fufu n jiakee can join our graduation trip
n go back to pangkor,the place we become sisters...^^

Love ya~ ♥

我是爱哭鬼..

你对我说的每句话
我都很在乎
可能有时候我很任性
所以你说了一些话
让我听了觉得好像你做的事是我逼你做的..
我不会掩饰情绪
你很容易就猜穿我是真的开心还是假的开心
所以现在很多时候
就算忍我也要在你面前强颜欢笑
我不想变成那种让男生讨厌的爱哭和小气的女生...
虽然我知道对你来说
有些事是我想太多
或许吧..

♥

好久没写blog 了...
最近时间过得真的很快
距离踏入社会是近在眼前的事实
现在珍惜的是在这里和朋友一起渡过的回忆
以后还会有机会常见吗?
距离和工作将会是最大问题
希望友情还在

最近常听 这首歌
可能里面有着我们的心情吧=)

别过眼前 才知道泪会流
要走向前才明白
舍不得所以回头
放了手 看懂了
离愁 才是抓紧的手
转过身后才知道心会痛
要狠下心 才明白
走一步有多遥远
放了心 看懂了
不放的是一些曾经

给我答应我们会再见
让我们天涯海角始终不变
承诺藏在心里面 什么距离都不算远
给我信心我们会再见
陷在思念边缘也会想念
可以回头再见 就算一切改变我们会再见

习惯离别 习惯说着再见
然后又相隔了多少年
有没有再见 是不是真的有关缘

给我答应我们会再见
让我们天涯海角始终不变
承诺藏在心里面 什么距离都不算远
给我信心我们会再见
陷在思念边缘也会想念
可以回头再见 就算一切改变我们会再见

就算一切改变我们会再见

猜不透

丁当 - 猜不透
作词：黄婷 / 作曲：林迈可 / 编曲：林迈可 

猜不透  
 你最近时好时坏的沈默  
 我也不想去追问太多  
 让试探为彼此的心 上了锁  
  
猜不透  
 相处会比分开还寂寞  
 两个人都只是得过且过  
 无法感受每次触摸 是真的 是热的  
 
 如果忽远忽近的洒脱  
 是你要的自由  
 那我宁愿回到一个人生活 
  
 如果忽冷忽热的温柔  
 是你的藉口  
 那我宁愿对你从没认真过  
 
 到底这感觉谁对谁错  
 我已不想追究  
 越是在乎的人越是猜不透

Happy 4th monthsary & Happy CNY~~

today is a special day for me again..=)
our 4th monthsary and also CNY eve...
long time no steamboat with my lovely family already...
hehe..
but raining days still stick with us...
it seems like not willing to run away..
so bad...

wish everyone can enjoy ur CNY~
no matter you are celebrate with your family or not
it still can be a great day..^^
just enjoy it and relax...
must be happy always and stay healthy forever ya~~

♥ hometown ♥

finally i reach home today to celebrate the coming CNY~
for me,
CNY = EAT = FAT
haha~
anyway
long time no steamboat with my lovely family and i tink i will enjoy it alot on the coming Wednesday..^^
but it is too bad because the holiday is too short for us T.T
i need to go back on Sunday and maybe i will miss "捞鱼生" this year..
really bad.. ><
although the CNY is coming soon
but i still need start my assignment..
i hope i can finish it tomorrow..
hwaiting to myself and my friends who face this assignment also..
haha~
let's finish it before CNY and we can celebrate it with relax mood..XD

NEW

finally i change my hairstyle on Tuesday...=)
this time i have a curly hair
lol
with my favorite red color
but sometimes it looked like orange color
anyway
i still like very much^^

i cannot upload the latest photo because someone needs surprise
ask me dun upload it first...
lol

new year with new hairstyle
new hairstyle bring new mood
hope everything can be alright in 2011
haha~

3rd monthsary...♥

today is our 3rd monthsary
but we never met in this month...
haha~
anyway,
both of us still enjoy the day although we are separated in two places...
=)

finally i bought some new clothes just now^^
due to the trend of korea fashion
my clothes that i bought just now are quite near the style of korea...
haha~

actually i still not sure which day i will go back campus
i need to wait my roommate's reply
really cant wait to go back thr
and this year will be our last year in campus study together...
i will appreciate the moments we play and fun together...^^
i know all of us will meet soon
but still want to say that
I MISS YOU ALL VERY MUCH~~

HAPPY NEW YEAR~

today is a special day with a special date
1-1-11..
it is the beginning of a new year and i hope that there will be many good things may happen in this year ^^
besides, it also means that new semester will be started soon.. =)
it's a great thing for me since i can't wait to go back there..lol

anyway,
i wish my life in this year can be better and more surprises...haha
then, i wish also my family and friends can stay happy always =)
girls become prettier,boys become more handsome!!!
LOL